| I guess it's been a long long time since I've even looked at this... Lots has changed since then. Matt and I are giving it another go. Things are going much better this time. I'm not as sad about not having my job anymore. I'm looking at it as some free time for me to actually get some school work done. I have back to back exams today so that's kind of nerve racking. In fact I'm not sure why I'm doing this and not studying. I'll be back later... |
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| I guess it's time for another entry. After one I could deny that I was keeping an online journal, but what the heck. I'll give in to the power of Xanga.
For all of you who don't know, I don't even know who all of you is noone probably reads this anyways, I live in the middle of Colorado. When the hurricanes hit I felt bad but I felt protected from the effects of them here. GUESS NOT. I got laid off yesterday because of the hurricane. The government funding for my job got reallocated to the south. That really kind of pissed me off. I can't help feeling like I did something wrong. Yet I feel selfish because there are so many people who are so much worse off than me. So there is my thousands and thousands of dollars in donations. I just can't claim those ones on my taxes.
It's been a week. There are three things that have pretty much been my life for almost two years or longer. Matt, school and work. Within four days I lost two of those. I think I'm on the edge of having a complete meltdown. I don't even know what to do with myself. Plus I have a huge snow exam that I haven't even looked at yet....
I need a vacation from my life but only a short one. |
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| So according to Xanga I have been a member for 129 days... and this is my first post ever.
For lack of any better reason for this being my first post I'll just say I have nowhere else to go or no one else to talk to. After almost a year and eight months Matt and I have broken up. I did a good job of pushing not just my friends away but his friends away as well. I would be willing to bet this is going to be a rough time for both of us. Usually I would go to my mom but she's not here anymore. I can't even get in touch with her on the phone. She's working at least thirty hours a day.
I have a current world problems exam today that I just can't bring myself to study for so I'm going to wing it and hope for the best. I don't need to do better than a D in the class. I know that's no way to look at it but I have other classes that mean a whole lot more to me. I'm not really a current world problem type of person anyways. I don't really get into that kind of stuff.
Anyways I guess that's enough for now. I'll write more when I really feel like writing and not just wasting time. |
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